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Maci, my beautiful child, I love you more then anything in this world. I know at 9 it's hard for you to see just how perfect you are through my eyes, but you my child amaze me everyday! It's hard for me to watch u struggle daily, someone is always mad at you, you are always getting into trouble. Maci I want you to know that no matter how different you think you are that someone else feels just as you do!!! I hope that soon you will accept yourself for who you are, you may be different from your friends baby but you are you and people will accept you for you, at least the people that matter will. I love you baby girl and mommy is always here, stop hating yourself and love you. I know I do!!!

I have bipolar... Been on and off of my meds, pregnant now so not using any medication - its hard and no one gets how I struggle every day, they think I am the way I am because I want to be this way. I would have ended my life a long time ago if I didn't have to see my dad trying to commit suicide every second weekend, it broke my heart and tore my soul into a million pieces, ill never do that to my little boy and the rest of my family... Even though it crosses my mind very often, ill rather die inside than leave my family.

My 16 year old son is battling Bipolar and the reason I say battling is because at his age he is a guinea pig! He has had to go through several withdrawals going off of the wrong medications. Hes been in and out of the hospital since 8th grade, now in 11th grade, but each and every day is a struggle either at school, or just leaving the house. We pray day after day for a guardian angel to look over him and our family and ask to please have our son back, to what we remember as being normal. His Dad and I love him so much and are trying to learn as much as we can about this illness and are so scared for him and his thoughts of suicide. He was just recently put on Lithium and Zoloft together.We are fighting with you son, and will do everything it takes!We love you unconditionally!

Hi, I am glad to see this site on line. I know that this is a very difficult condition to have to deal with, I have a dear friend that is living with it. I would like to see what I can learn and add to the building a road to the betterment of coping with the medicines and hopefully see what alternatives there are to them. My friend is very much better with the medicine but is still experiencing a need to deny using it. She tells me the struggle and I can not help but feel a need to reach out for her to see what I can do. I would like to know that the research toward development of more comfortable medicines. I hope that there are professionals on this sight that I may correspond with. Thank you

I want to leave a memorial to all the wonderful friends I made while working with HOTSO, RYSE, the STPH & LPH Patients' Councils who have lost their battles and no longer grace my life and Southern Ontario Canada, with their special presences. I miss you all.

My mother died today and I am feeling lost and sad and a host of other feelings including heartbreaking pain. She struggled with bipolar disorder for years. Now she finally has peace. I just miss her so much and want her back. My prayer and wish for those with mental illnesses is that they will be accepted, loved, and met with understanding. Our world must see mental illnesses as we do any other kind of illness and make awareness a priority. I will work for this cause as long as I am able for my mother's sake. My heart is with all who read this.

Sean, I know that it hasn't even been a week since ur passing. These last days have felt do unreal, like a bad dream that we will all wake up from. But I know that this is not the case. For your whole life you have had do much strength, you worked and fought so hard and you achieved everything you said you would. I love you do much. Please watch over us. STRENGTH and HONOR

Dearest Mark,
I know we never met and as close family friends it's something I regret.
I've heard so many great things about you and I understand the overwhelming feeling of being blue.
I truly believe you and your family are no longer apart. Now you can see how much you are in everyone's heart.

Do Not Judge
" You do not know what storm I've asked him to walk through. "

-God

With ALL of my heart, I pray that you will be able to take each day, hour, minute, second at a time and make each moment a time of peace and gratitude for where you are now. What a courageous battle you are waging. Just know that Dad and I love you so much.

My family just found me...after 9 months of living in my car, running away from ME! I didn't believe that such a "perfect" family would accept someone like me; in the darkest depth of bi-polar dispair. Fate brought us together and love will hold us together. I'm here on your site today... safe and warm, and want to say that there IS hope. Between the depression and the mania, there is a place in your heart where you will find unconditional love FOR YOURSELF. Good Luck... and NEVER SURRENDER!